what is my phone for anyhow?

I am seriously thinking of getting my landline phone disconnected. About 75 per cent of messages left on my machine are hangups. I am not sure which of those are friends or telemarketers. What good is a landline if no one wants to leave a message on my machine, and I'm never home to answer it? (except Mcgraw, he was nice & left me Actual Messages.) I have Call Display too, I know many of my friends by their work or cell numbers by now, but the dratted telemarketers call on numbers that when you call them, are "not in service." So I have a device for telemarketers to reach me. Great.
No one wants to text message me except Marnie, otherwise text messaging would be an awesome alternative. People could leave me a message that I could read quickly at work, but I don't have to interrupt my work too much to respond. (I move around from room to room at work so calling me at work would be awkward.) Rogers and Bell allow text messages to be sent for free from their websites, but I can't respond. But my dad has texted me the odd time and it's been useful.
I am still on dialup so I would look into a "lite" high-speed internet service. However I am being contacted by the gov't for a Stats Can survey so maybe I will hold off for now.

are you a star?

I heard an interview on the radio today with a makeup artist. He was asked if stars are difficult to deal with. He said "the real stars are cool, but sometimes the people who aren't stars are more difficult" I guess because they are more frustrated at not having achieved their dreams and they are still paying their dues.
I wondered if that is me, it sure was when I was in college and all bitter. Now that I have a job that I like, it is way better and I am super-happy.
But it made me wonder if there are aspects of my life left in which I am not a star, that I feel bitter about. Wahhh. Imagine someone working with you, with that insight, thinking, "they're not super-successful. How bitter they must feel." How depressing would that be?
Now my job, (graphics op) while not the job I dreamed of as a child (recording studio engineer), is still kind of fabulous. I just kind of stopped at a job that was pretty good, instead of killing myself trying to get a job that was out of my reach.
I am reading the CBC Radio One website, and a couple of people who host shows are fellow York grads, and CHRY volunteers. If I had tried to get a job at Brave New Waves, would I be working at CBC??? At CHRY, I was viewed as a hick somewhat, I would go so far as to call it disdain, not knowing what "underground" music was, so maybe being a pop-culture knowledgeable person was never in my reach. In whose eyes though??? I know what I know; I guess I yam what I yam.